Monday, March 18, 2013

Shocking

10 Things That I Sometimes Find Shocking that Really Shouldn't Be... Shocking

  1. How little time it actually takes to do the dishes
  2. How ridiculously hard it is to get up in the morning
  3. How amazingly helpful teenagers can/want to be
  4. How many songs from high school choir I still have memorized
  5. How quickly my body responds to exercise
  6. How many friends I have who rally around me even when I'm un-rally-worthy
  7. How good I am at math
  8. How miraculously flowers bloom in the spring
  9. How hope keeps springing up when all hope is lost
  10. How quickly Heavenly Father responds with love, and hope, and peace, and comfort and guidance when all I've done is ask.

Saturday, January 12, 2013

Weight For It...

Two years ago I lost 40 pounds. I was so proud of myself. I felt great. 
I had 30 more to go to meet my goal. 

And then I gained it all back. 

There are all kinds of reasons - otherwise known as excuses. 
I've wearied myself trying to place blame.
My fault for not being perfect.
My friends for not physically restraining me at the gelato shop.
The mean kid in junior high who said I was ugly.
That cinnamon roll for being too tasty.
That awful girl on the school bus who made fun of me.
The man who broke my heart.
.......
Blah blah blah.

I'm starting to recognize the triggers. 
I'm starting to relearn what it means to be healthy. 
I'm falling down daily and picking myself up each morning.
Nights are hard for me.
I get lonely and bored and start munching. 

I want my freedom back. I want a new trial. 
I'm tired of this one. It's cramping my style.
(Didn't intend for that to rhyme, but it was a happy accident.)

I worked out for an hour on my new treadmill this morning.
It felt great.

I entered all of my meals in my new calorie-tracker app. 
And I did really well with my food today. 
I'm proud of that.

One day at a time.

My current goal is 82 pounds.
It sounds like a lot. It is.

I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.
Philippians 4:13